Was it because they never knew?

I had a full day. And I splurged quite a bit of cash.

Rainy afternoon and Lunch with a Malaysian friend whom i recently knew and met while working @ a roadshow. She's been in Taipei for almost a year and she's was posted over from Msia Unilever. Unilever, large company with heaps of large brands and she's an expat from Msia, Nice. Y-June brought two other friends, A from her company, finance director, and Kim, Director for Millford Brown. And I brought along another friend of mine I knew from warcraft online.

Splurged cash on books @ Page one and a compact and gloss @ Mitsushiko. Late dinner with friends later that day, blissful mates who had spent their lives with one another eversince primary school, the kind of bond you see in mates who have never knew what it is to be without one another. I never bothered to nurture these kinda bonds in my primary school days. What if it doesn't work out?

Y-June , A and Kim were all very down to earth, too down to earth perhaps that I wonder what is it exactly am I looking for in life? What is it that makes a person?

Can I have my cake and eat it? I have always adored attention but what exactly is the kind of eyes I wish be on me? I see people come and go, and i see people I never wish to become and I think, what choices have these people made? Why have they allowed themselves to become the way they are? Was it because they never knew? And I see people who glows, What choices have they made?

I am frightened now, my life is shaping up and time is whirling faster now. People who have beautiful lives, a happy wholesome family and happy wholesome memories. I am afraid I am no longer able to make mistakes. People judge you for many things, and I am afraid i am not ready to take that challenge yet.